When a Facebook friend recently commented on herself, "Some days even I question my sanity!!!!", I'm thinking "maybe". Just a little humor there because if anything Mandy sometimes fails at filtering how she says thing which I find endearing as long as I'm out of ricochet range.
So, I'm sitting here trying to describe my recent visit to my mom who's in a hospice. It's more difficult than I thought to put those three days of confusion and contradictions into words. Anytime I can't find the words its a big clue that I'm neither comfortable with the words I want to use nor with what I'm trying to say.
This lead me to recall a few of us in the office a taking a personality test, the goal being to solidify team building by learning other's reaction to different office situations. Four of us shared the results with others.
Michael values close, personal relationships, and he will often put the needs and desires of those who are loyal friends ahead of his own needs. He is an even-paced individual who thrives in a peaceful, harmonious environment. Michael will work to avoid conflict and sudden changes in his lifestyle and finds joy in keeping tradition. Systematic and detailed, Michael focuses on the process. Others see him as practical and logical. He tends to be sensitive to criticism, but prefers to internalize his emotions rather than expose them. Michael likes to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects, because he works hard to meet the standards that are set for him.
Michael would prefer things stay the same, rather than to risk a new venture (unless it is proven and true) . He is typically peaceful and low key, and is usually seen by those around him as a good friend and listener. He tends to adopt a "wait and see" attitude about things, rather than taking charge of a situation, usually preferring to let others take the lead.
Michael usually avoids being the center of attention. He tends to pick his friends carefully and is usually cautious and not overly "open" to strangers. Michael may sometimes come across as being skeptical of what others tell him they will do, but once a person has proven their reliability, Michael is willing to invest more time and trust in the relationship.
Let's see if now I can describe my Iowa visit to say my final goodbye to mom. Its more confusing than sad since we've learned she won't be leaving us in the foreseeable future.